Reminders

Sometimes I wonder why in the world God chose me of All people to be in a relationship that is/was predominantly long distance. The first "School year" that Evan and I have were together was long distance, then last summer we both worked at different camps. I was at Mundo he was at Rockmont. We were together for this past school year, which was great and I wouldn't trade it for anything. But then this summer he is back at Rockmont and I am home working and taking summer classes. I've asked my self everyday since Evan left this summer, why me lord, why can't I just have a relationship like all a lot of other couples have, where they dont really have long distance. They may not see each other for the span of a week or two at the longest. Sometimes it really gets to me how much Evan and I have spent 3/4 of our relationship apart. When I don't get a call or don't get to see him for weeks at a time, like I will this summer, It hits me hard. And why after weeks like this, of nothing but work, health issues, school, and on top of that Evan leaving for the summer, God chose us to be apart yet again. But then nights like tonight remind me why. A friend asked me how Evan and I keep God in the center of our relationship. I told her that we aren't perfect by any means and we sin just as much as everyone else does. But then I got to share with her how we started out with God not in the complete center of our relationship, and how it affected up both as individuals and as a couple. I told her that one weekend about a year and a few months into our relationship, we both felt like we needed to have a talk about our relationship and where is was going. That night we decided to ask God for forgiveness for not having him in the middle of us at all times, and for guidance in our relationship. We started talking more about God and our religious views more, doing devotions together, and praying together.
After a might of being able to share how God is working through our relationship, it reminded me that God hasn't "put me/us through" a long distance relationship for nothing.

God has BLESSED me someone who he is going to be happy that I got to share our story with others for the glory of God. God BLESSED me with someone who I can trust wont just leave me over the summer while he is gone and when I don't get to talk to him for a while. God blessed me with the strength to be away from my BEST FRIEND for almost our whole relationship, so I can bring glory to his name when people ask about our relationship.
God has CHOSEN me to be in a long distance relationship again for the summer, and one of those reason was tonight, to Share how has worked and is still working in our relationship, so we can share the word of God with others! I'm not saying that it is easy by any means to be apart, but it dose make it easier to know that I get to say "we're teenagers in a relationship, so yes we sin, just like you, But God is a forgiving and loving God," to people when they ask about my relationship. I don't know of many kids my age, that have relationships like that. I feel lucky to be able to say to people that I have a Godly man as my best friend, and who I just happen to be dating.

While I miss him more than anything right now, wish I got more time with him, or more phone calls, I know that God is using that to work through and in us for him, and not myself. I have to remind myself of that everyday.

Amanda:)