While visiting Evan several times at North Greenville University, and the city of Greenville SC, I started to really love the city and the school. After staying a few weekends with some friends at NGU, I really felt like I needed to be at a school like that. I started researching schools to transfer to and visited some, but none of them felt right to me, I didn't feel like I fit in as well as I did at NGU.
I looked into NGU and found a major that is exactly what I can see myself doing when I graduate from College. The major is called interdisciplinary studies. It is combining to majors and interest. I would combine Art with Graphic design concentration with Mass communications and Print Media. With this degree it will make it a lot easier to work for a church or christian organization, which is what I want, and think I am meant to do when I graduate. I feel God calling me to do this instead of just graphic design.
I have been very hesitant to say that I want to transfer to NGU for a couple of reasons. NGU is a private school, which means it cost a lot of money. Since it is a lot more than UNCC, I would have to take out students loans in order to attend the school, and I was just not sure if I wanted to do that yet. I came to love NGU because of visiting Evan ever so often. He and our relationship were the main reasons at first I was very hesitant to transfer. I didn't want to hurt his education or our relationship if I were to transfer there. I care more about the people I love and the relationships I have with them instead of making myself happy sometimes. I made is clear to him and everyone else who knows I was in the process of transferring schools that I was not transferring for him. I want to transfer to do something I love and know I will be good at. I don't want people to think I am transferring for him. Even though I know this will come up all the time, I am ready to explain and tell people he is not the reason I transfered.
After having numerous conversations with him about this subject, one of the many things he told me was to forget what other people think and do what I feel is right for myself. I need to stop trying to please others so much, (since I do it all the time) and please myself and go where God wants me to go and wants me to be.
After hearing this from him several times, months research, of thinking and praying, I have made up my mind where I want to attend school next year.
Even though a part of me doesn't want to go into and come out of school owing money, I have to go where I feel like God is leading me to be. After visiting a church in Greenville, a few times with Evan, one sunday the message and a performance really hit me and showed me what I was meant to do with my life. There was a performance artist at Springwell that performed during worship by painting the face of Jesus. This really hit home with me because I have done this in church also. I asked God before that serves to give me some sort of sign as to what I was supposed to do with my life and where I was supposed to be in the fall. As he was painting I had chills the whole time. That's when I knew, that was my sign and I was meant to make art like that and to make art for God and not just a corporation. That's when I knew that I was to use my talent for his will and not mine or anyones else's. This is why I have chosen to transfer to North Greenville in the fall of this year. It isn't for my friends, it isn't for my boy friend, it isn't all for myself, its to please God and honor what I feel like he is leading me to do.
